"It" was yet to awaken.
My life has been spared, but these feelings might never regain consciousness, and I am solely responsible for this. I made it stay here for too long. Left all alone, abandoned by time, it chose death over despair.
I believe it will regain consciousness one day. I will place it in a cold sleep. This way, it could never be tarnished.
However, I do not know if I had taken the best course of action. I grieved heavily over its loneliness, and I willfully chose its own death. Even in the distant future that I might feel it again, the same vast world that I no longer know will stretch out before me.
When that happens, what would I say to her? I might just be committing the same mistake all over again. But even so.. even if that's the case.. I..
It's as if million lights were scattered across the sky. It was said that those memories were the most beautiful thing a person could cherish. And this is the first time I've experienced the warmest feeling yet the coldest one a person could feel.
Once more, I wish she could feel the same way back again. Even if it took centuries, even if it took thousands of years..
Yet, why is it.. that she..
She's the one I couldn't forget? Even if thousands of years came to pass, for the sake of the moment that she'll become finally aware of me.. For the sake of easing her loneliness when she realizes those.. Even if this world's visage changes, I shall continue the way I am, for what I feel, right now.
With these warm feelings that she doesn't know, I will wait.
So that, at least she can rest assured that one person is waiting for her. So I can tell her, that she's not alone. I will become the star that would shine in the darkest and deepest abyss, so I hope that she could be my light to follow as a guide.
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