I was on the right track, but on the wrong train.

Okay. it's summer vacation. Had a lot of thoughts. Also had a bad year-ender.

This post, is a post dedicated to whoever reads this post. About the previous posts, I assume I can't make any of those at the moment, because my love lies lost in time right now. The real post is this. The previous posts, they're just pieces of me that won't fit on my mind.

As the title states, I'm on the right track, but on the wrong train.

A dilemma, yes. My thoughts today and yesterday won't meet. I don't know why. The pieces won't fit together. Ah, yea, there ARE missing pieces. Fragments of my yesterday. I have to move forward, I can't turn back. Even if I already know, the direction inside of me keeps pointing contrastive to what I want. Lol, do I have a mental problem? XD

They say, God created conscience to back us up if our common sense fails. I think not. My common sense failed, and I can't hear my conscience.

Wait.

I think it is ME that don't want to hear what my conscience says. Too bad. I don't have someone to talk to. That's why this blog is created. This post. Right here, right now. My conscience does not reply to my questions, rather, this conscience says an entirely different opinion. I've been talking about conscience here, but, before I must continue, what is conscience?

Conscience is an ability or a faculty that distinguishes whether one's actions are right or wrong. It leads to feelings of remorse when one does things that go against his/her moral values, and to feelings of rectitude or integrity when one's actions conform to our moral values.

That's what wikipedia says. But I really didn't understand even a word there. Lol. Nice copy pasting skills.

"A conscience is what hurts when all your other parts feel so good"

A statement that struck me.


It's going to be different now. I can't promise, but I'll try my best. If not, for the betterment of me. I'll be serious in my studies now. Really. I can't have this luxury, the luxury of slacking. Still, there's 20% chance that I can do it. The 80% says I can't do it. xDD

Argh, my brain went dry. Can't process any thoughts anymore. Imma have my lunch. I'll be back. :D