Reality was never so sweet.

Unrequited love is love that is not openly reciprocated, even though reciprocation is usually deeply desired.

That's one of reality's harsh truth. We can't live it the way we want, however, we can live it how it is supposed to be.

If I had a tail like a dog, it'd be probably making a buzzing sound from shaking so quickly with hidden joy. "ah. lucky am I, that am not a dog." I thought to myself with relief. Thinking that, I was amazed at myself for being such an idiot. Even so, the road to reality never seemed to be a satisfying one.

From the very beginning, she was somewhat different from the other girls. I started liking her from the day of our third year in highschool, and wanted to study more with her. Even with this slacker career, I somehow managed to cope up with our hard lessons the previous weeks. Even then, I liked her more whenever I see her figure. It was scary, and every day was filled with anguish. But being happy every time our eyes meet, was something about myself I couldn't do anything about.

She would sometimes think of other things when in classes. During those times, I wished that I was the one that she thinks about. For some reason, I kept thinking that every time.

The time I went online in my YM tonight, the inside of my chest started to pain somewhat. She's kind. At times, it was likely that she's going to cry.

A journey so dark and lonely as to be beyond all imagination. To exist purely in darkness, without even meeting a single hydrogen atom by chance. To absolutely and wholeheartedly believe that somewhere in the abyss, you are getting closer to the secrets of the universe. In that manner, where are we headed towards? How far will we go?

When did I start typing drafts that are never posted? To desperately and blindly stretch out our hands towards the heavens, to have thoughts that we couldn't even want to imagine. and to fix our eyes on something in the darkness of the far reaches of space. Even if only a little. I've come to realize, why she seemed so different from the other girls. And at the same time, I also came to the full understanding that she, would never look at me. That's why, I did not say anything to her related on these unrequited feelings.

Although she's kind, very kind, but, she has always, been looking at something far beyond. Far higher than me. I could never give which she desires. Even so, even so, I'm sure that even when tomorrow comes, or the day after, or thereafter, I will still be helplessly like her so much. Thinking only about her, with these thoughts, I'll end.



Waa. Imma opt for LiveJournal. My blog has turned into a chain of short essays. XD
Anyways, am off. My hands are tired. Goodnight.